Tuesday, 31 January 2012

Random thoughts in complete randomness of a completely insane and random person.

I kind of noticed that most killjoys on the my chem website are getting ass hurt over a few trolls maybe, as well as not winning some competitions.

You asses, re-LAX. It's a competition, and you gave it your best shot. Stop fucking ranting about how you're supposed to have won. In our eyes, all our answers are always good enough. Our answers will always be the perfect ones. OUR response is always correct and the best, no matter how wrong it is.You are all really childish to have gotten butthurt over not winning that Phant-O-Matic, okay? My Chem organises a motherfucking competition so that their fans will be happy. THEY, I am sure, certainly didn't want their fans to be hurt over not being able to win. They are the ones that selected the entry that would win, so why are you getting hurt over it? Accept the fact that your answer probably wasn't good enough and move on, because other than that, all you can do is sulk about it, bitch about it, fuck a horse about it. Nothing you can do will ever make you the winner of the competition, no matter how many times you dream of it, no matter how many times you want to murder the person over and over and over, no matter how many morbid thoughts you have on killing and mutilating the winner. SHE was chosen to be the winner, and there's absolutely nothing, NOTHING, you can do about it. So STOP being a pain in the ass and move on. Lots of chances await you, so you have to keep trying. Don't just sit there and expect things to happen.

I've also noticed that the killjoys are quarreling over who should win and who shouldn't. WELL EXCUSE ME, you might call it sibling rivalry, but I wish. I really wish that we could be a family again. Killjoys, I'm fighting a motherfucking losing battle here. I can't win if I'm flying solo. We need to be a big family again. We need to love each other like we did before. What happened? People hate us, because there's too much drama here! I agree with them. Some people have been quarrelling over the issue of "new" fans and "old" fans. Apparently, they say, old fans are the best of fans while new fans just want to be fans because My Chemical Romance is now mainstream. Yeah right. YEAH RIGHT. Fans will be fans, tumbleweeds, and as long as they love MCR for their world-changing records and albums, not just like "OHMYGODIWANTTOFUCKGERARDUNDERTHEMISLTETOE" or something along those lines then please, accept them for who they are! We are all outcasts here, and in my opinion the my chem website, the facebook page, even the MCRmy twitter accounts, are where we are accepted. Where we can belong. AND you guys, the supposed loving and caring older ones, are ousting them out! You are ostracizing them! What happened to the one big family?

Also that thing about the old MCR and the new MCR. Killjoys, there will be old material and new material, but MCR will be MCR and that will never ever change. NEVER. The message they've been sending 7 years ago is the same that they're sending now: "Be yourself, never be a second-rate copy of someone else because you are unique and no one can ever replace you." They are sending the same message, except through different sounds: Bullets and Revenge were very dark and what fits the stereotype of emo, Black Parade was spunky and theatrical, and Danger Days is futuristic and loving. Can't you see that? Patients have left the MCRmy because "oh, the new album is too happy." What kind of fucking reason is that? MCR has and always will be my hero, because they send the same message with every song they produce; be it Our Lady of Sorrows or Vampires Will Never Hurt You or Sing or Party Poison. They are the same message in a different form! It's like eating chocolate ice cream and eating chocolate ice cream CAKE.

Sunday, 29 January 2012

Finally, a meaningful post where I don't rant negative things!

So since I'm really bored, I've decided to come up with a list of what is my top ten favourite lyrics and why. Everybody wants to know the why. Yes, yes you do.

Starting with 10! This is from the song My Immortal by Evanescence. "There's just too much that time cannot erase." These lyrics have helped me through rough patches in my early fandom, when I started to "go bad", as my mom would say. There's a lot of depth in these lyrics, because the emotional scars inflicted on me in my early fandom still remain. Only death, I fear, can take away these scars.

9! This is from Zero Percent by MCR. "Oh, my magazine is full of ugly things!" These pretty much defeated the purpose of magazine publishers publishing stereotypes in their material. Models in magazines are supposedly "beautiful", anorexic bitches. Since when did a skin-and-bone model become prettier and hotter than someone like Marilyn Monroe!? This really took the pressure off me to look REALLY skinny and so-called pretty.

8! From Sing, MCR. "Sing it for the deaf, sing it for the blind." This really evokes pity for the handicapped people, how they're not able to do things that most of us can do, for example, see where they're going. We should never ever look down on these people because you have absolutely no idea what they've gone through.

7! From NaNaNa, MCR. "Everybody wants to change the world, everybody wants to change the world but no one, no one wants to die" Of course it's true that no one wants to die! Even in your darkest of moments, there's always a glimmer of hope, giving what I call "Pandora's principle".

6! From The Kids From Yesterday, MCR. "You only hear the music when your heart begins to break." My heart, is broken. Nuff said.

5! From Our Lady of Sorrows, MCR. "Oh how wrong we were to think that immortality meant never dying." Does it, my blog readers? Does it? Think about it.

4! From Summertime, MCR. "And carry all this broken bone, through the six years down in crowded rooms, and highways I called home." When we meet that one person that we truly love, and who truly loves us, they would help us, support us, even though we're so broken on the inside. Even though we may have run away, even though we lost everything we once had.

3! From Sing again. "Generation nothing. nothing but a dead scene, product of a white dream." Isn't everything around us so monochrome now? It's so black and white it nearly hurts. Most of us have lost our colours, our life, our vibrancy. We ARE, and becoming quickly, generation nothing, a product of a white dream.

2! From 21 guns, Green Day. "Does the pain weigh out the pride, and you look for a place to hide." We all have our egoes, and no matter how grand and furious they are, they are egoes after all, and will hurt our hearts once in a while.

Finally, 1! What, no drumroll? Whatever. From Welcome To The Black Parade, MCR. "And though you're dead and gone believe me, your memory will carry on." Those are the sweetest words I have ever heard a son say to his father.

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

Uh-huh. So I've been away. And your point is...?

And what's been happening in the meantime? Well, I can say that I've tied up most of my loose ends, my dad's tried to kill me many times over, school is boring, cookies are nice and the list goes on. BUT! Most important. I finally got the courage to contact Gerard via email, and he's replied :) Sad to say after about 6 emails we're still arguing about hyperventilation.

He's bleached his hair, and I want to dye mine pink. For a day. DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT YOU KNOW I'M INSANE. Anyway I asked him for hair dye-ing tips since he's dyed it so many times *w*

I've found out that the people on twitter really are nicer than the people on facebook, but that doesn't change the fact that they ARE part of the MCRmy, part of my family.

I guess it's just the fact that lots of people on the facebook page are really sketchy, and that just really gets on my nerves whenever I talk to them. It's like, sex this, sex that, sex all over the place. We are better than that, I know we are.

My parents have found out I'm talking to "devils" and want me to stop. I think if I carry on with this they'd call the exorcist lol.

I've gone past the depression, and I'm glad to say three weeks off the pills and cuts! Yay! Hopefully I can keep this up so I don't ruin my life any further. I've also gotten a slant fringe thing. It's quite nice, and I look lots better in it. Vritika23 on twitter is now my big sister. So is fuckyeahbandit.

If I get good enough results on my mid-year this time round I'll be getting a dog. I want a husky, and I'll name it Nightlocke. Thank you Rue, for being such an awesome friend. Good luck wherever you go, whatever you do, because the love of the MCRmy is with you. I hope to see you again one day.